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New life

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Oh hello there!

Long time no see!

I currently have no life. 
Got a car about a month ago, getting ready for Otakuthon, trying to finish an overdue commission for a friend, drawing for Nadeshicon, trying to work on Café Dolce, learning Japanese.

All at the same time woohoo! Never got so many things to do haha!

Now now. Let's talk about serious stuff for a second. 
I did not talk about this here I think. But mental health is very important.
Getting out of a toxic relationship has been the best thing that happened to me. I feel alive again and most of all, I have time for me and to improve the person I am and what I wanna be. Of course, it's a long process, but an important one.

I was close to a very Narcissist person and it had a very hard impact on my life and mental health. After years of being closer and closer to this person, I became depressed and very stressed about a lot of things, and how others view me. I was miserable. I was mean and becoming a bad person. Someone I did not like to be. 

I had the chance to get out of there with the help of someone I love. It was hard and sad since I had a lot of friends there. Most of them never spoke to me again. Most of them deserve better than what they have, and I hope they find a way to get out of this same relationship that ruined my self-confidence. Some of them already have better and they should just cut the line. 

But it is a very hard thing to do. Narcissists will manipulate you the best they can. The best I can do is hope that others will see the truth in their game and try to get away. I will never turn back a victim of narcissists. Because I know how it feels. You feel lonely, hated, and scared. Once you get out of a toxic relationship, you realize there is so much more to life. So much new and old friends. So many things you can like and do without being bullied out of them. I met people with wonderful dreams and ambitions that were crushed by someone who did not want them to succeed.

Don't be scared to talk, find someone who will truly listen to you. Who will listen without judging or trying to make YOU behave and thing how THEY want. If you are not in a comfortable relationship and don't know what a narcissist is, here's a brief description:
  • Grandiose sense of self-importance. ...
  • Lives in a fantasy world that supports their delusions of grandeur. ...
  • Needs constant praise and admiration. ...
  • Sense of entitlement. ...
  • Exploits others without guilt or shame. ...
  • Frequently demeans, intimidates, bullies, or belittles others.

If you want to talk or have questions, or need help, you can send me a note and I will try my best to answer and try to help. I know it can be difficult to take a step, but the first step is the most important one. Accepting that you are in a bad situation. Then asking for help. 

Your dreams are worthy. You are worthy.


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Cons and stuff

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Hello there,

Nadeshicon is next weekend and it's gonna be fun!
So much thing to prepare!! I am not finished yet but we've done a major part of the organization! 
My girlfriend is very good at organizing stuff so she helps a LOT!
I have a lot of new merch too! So come see us!!
Table #2!!!

Nadeshicon 2019 by Kunyue

Also, my girlfriend started to work at my job woohoo! 
I hope everything goes well for her! We are gonna work the same shift!

:) I have my final driving exam April 9th too! Wish me luck!!
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Happy new year!!
2019 is full of project again!

1- Gonna finally finish a huge commission I've been doing for a while now!

2- Only 2 planned conventions this year. Nadeshicon and Otakuthon.

3- New merch. Shirts, mousepads etc... Stay tuned!

4- Our Café Dolce manga's first volume will finally see an end! Hopefully for Otakuthon. I will post some chapters online if I have permission. That is 2019's main project. That is why I plan only 2 cons this year and why I don't take commissions anymore.

5- Learning Japanese for real this time. Last time was a failure due to some circumstances but my GF and I are gonna take private classes on weekends. With only us two it will go well and better. Last time we had a group class and it went down cuz some people where mad at others that learned faster than them and took more time for homeworks. xD So now the two of us will help eachother instead. It will be awesome!

6- Since I am gonna work on Café Dolce more, I might be more active. At the moment, I mainly work on finishing commissions and art for Nadeshicon. So I have no time for posting and make new personal stuff.


Annnddd that's it for now!

I hope you have a great year!
Take care!!

Kunyue
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Con List by Kunyue
:star: Here is a list of this year's convention I will be attending :star:

See you there!!



OTAKUTHON WAS SUPER AWESOME!
Best convention EVER!
Anime North x 2!!! 
All weekend I was asking myself: What's going on!!!!???!?!!???! HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE!!!?????

I can't beleive how much stuff sold out....
Now I have to rush order for Animara Con. xD

All three days where full of people. I left on Saturday for a family event while my Girlfriend was taking care of the table. 
And Sunday was incredible!!! 

I only bought two artbooks (The tyrant falls in love and My little butterfly) and a Kawory Nagisa figurine.
My girlfriend was looking fo some mangas but did not find what she wanted.

Did not have time to get commissions from other artists, and no one asked for a commission so I had time to relax a little bit.

We went there by bus and subway with our hige luggage. (it's broken now we have to get another one)
My Oli-Yan print sold a LOT, wich is cool cuz they are original characters. Lady Oscar did well as well, and the Legend of Zelda ones too as always.

I have almost no more keychains, and no more lens cloths.
The plush cushions almost all sold out, I only have Gastly left. No more walscrolls also....

So yeah.... I'm REALLY happy with that weekend!

AND! A few fans came to see us, and asked questions about the manga. 

YES it is still in progress, we had to put it on hold because we got into too much cons this summer. But don't worry! It's comming. 
Next year we are only attending Nadeshicon. Not sure yet about Otakuthon. It will depend on how much the manga is completed.
Our goal is to finish a chapter or two for the end of November.


I'll try to post updates as soon as I can cuz some people where asking for it!

Until then, take care!
See you soon!!


Kunyue

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Hey!!

About two weeks lef until Nadeshicon.

SO MANY THINGS LEFT TO DO!
Working on a last minute banner....

Hope to finish it in time. 
I also want to make a few prints just to have new stuff.
Of course I'll bring mousepads and keychains, AND I'll have The Legend of Zelda TP Wallscolls!! :D

Also, I can't really talk about the details yet, but I might be getting involved into a HUGE graphic desing contract xD
Had dinner with a compagny president (cant name) and he's looking for someone to upgrade his compagny image. 

My GF printed things at her job for him (staples) and they talked, so he became interested in our convention stuff. One thing leads to another and now I'm assembling ideas to create a logo and buissiness cards for him. :D

I really hope it works out in the end because I have NO idea where it will lead us! The guy travels around the world all the time, and met so many important people.
I felt so small omg...

But he's a really nice old men. ^^

I had to share haha. Now I'm waiting on the project files to come in to start officially, and omg how is that possible.

I feel like it's so unreal. I might be able to leave my night job eventually?
I try not to get my hopes to high but it's hard because it's so excited.

I'm also still learning to drive. Going pretty well. I'm good with a car. Yay.


Except the lack of time/time management, everything is soooo gooooodddd. 
I also have a tale at anime north with a friend. ^^- 
I'm really nervous because it is a HUGE convention.

But my friend is used to it so I'm sure it's gonna be okay ^^- And Sharing a table is also cool. She was nice enough to share. So yay.
We just have to find a way to make a display for oue stuff. ^^-

Ahaha. 

I'm happy.... I have to go sleep though... Orz.

I may stream sometimes while finishing banner and prints.


So see ya!!

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